Along my attempted journey to the deepest depths of who I am within the current capacities as a human in the body that encapsulates what I truly am, I continue to question and doubt the real me. Hesitation, delay, and distraction remain powerful impediments to a smoother, natural flow I am committed to attain. While I attempt to remain steadfast in my movement to a truth that alludes me at the level I so strongly desire, I find myself succumbing to many influential forces that dissuade how I go about staying on course. There is a significant measure of control over my true identity that I know should be about my own, direct personal experience with God than with the deceptive forces that sanction a fragile sense of self and a false sense of security.
I continue to recognize many of the sources that I struggle to effectively and consistently manage on my personal path to freedom, many of which are reinforced in what society perceives and implements as “normal, acceptable, ordinary;” these play out as messages with which we are over-inundated that result in an acquiescence to a substandard, shallow, and highly underdeveloped existence. Negative, recurring mental schemata, a society that endorses materialism, superficiality, excess, and immediacy (i.e. quick fix remedies), a hierarchical system of interpersonal interaction, unresolved traumatic experiences, just to name a few, work to subdue the individual from expecting and striving for more.
A deeper, more refined inner essence awaits as I conquer the impediments along my journey to me, the real me, a lighter, freer, and more complete me.
I would appreciate any input, good or bad, happy or sad, nasty or nice, as it will help me in my aim to attain so much more. Please comment, question, clarify, debate.
fyrtu 